This year has been very generous and rude to me. Sorrows of joy and pain shaped me up. It is true when they say, “you are strong when you are weak.” I feel the completeness of His rescue, I feel the touch of His loving hands when I am most helpless.
Don’t stop me from my letter “I”s. No grammar, no rules. Plain feelings.
My heart with my mind couldn’t find any answer why I am too blessed. Strange if you know my struggles in life but yes, I feel really blessed. I wish to be on stage always to show my debt of gratitude. I am literally little and poor in every aspect but I feel so proud that in His eyes I am so special, so important. That makes me more guilty with all my shortcomings and faults -where in the world can I find the answer, why am I this blessed?
My brother tells me to wait. Wait, wait and wait. To my surprise, things come without me knowing it’s there already, smiling sweetly in front of me. It was just like yesterday but it’s been years that passed. Why should I grieve? Why should I worry, when all I have to do is pray, stand still and do what I have to do. But of course, blah blah blah… bad feelings will pay me a visit to ruin things but with His help I know I wouldn’t care anymore.
Thank God for holding my heart!
Until next blogging…